So it's been a few weeks. Maybe really just a week I'm not quite sure, but quite a bit has happened. But really I think quite a bit happens period when you go to a bible study. This post for my blogs may not be as long as my first, because I don't have as much pent up frustration and it doesn't cover the span of several months. However, there is a very good learning aspect from this short time. The one thing I continue to notice as a grow with these people at Radiant Love is that I always come out of hanging out with them with some new knowledge. Maybe a new perspective on things, or maybe something just completely out there that I never knew.
To start off I think I should begin with lunch with garrett and heather. We went to La Stradas, which has the best pizza so everyone should go there, and had a nice little 3-4 hour lunch convo thing. Now, most of what was brought up wasn't surprising nor has it never been heard of before. However Garrett decided to get calamari there, something I previously thought utterly disgusting and would never try. However, somehow we got onto some topic where I noticed Garrett was being very closed minded and wouldn't look at something from an outside point of view. Then I noticed I was being the same exact way by prejudging what calamari is like without trying it first. So I took that moment to prove to myself that I wouldn't be closed minded ever, in any situation, and plopped a piece in my mouth. It wasn't at all bad, and I never would have known that octopus could taste good had I decided to been closed minded. Which I think really speaks about a lot of things in life if you relate it to that same situation. So I vow now to never judge something before I try it.
Let's move forward to later that night I ended up hanging out with Garrett, Camilo, Alejandro, Kayla, Kresten, and Josh. All great people. We were just hanging around and eventually bibles got passed out and they did some kind of mini bible study thing, I didn't take the bible because personally I won't touch one because I don't like them. However for the first time I witnessed in this little group that there were different opposing views on things. Not so much arguments, nor do I mean they don't agree at all. But if one person doesn't see something the way someone else sees it, they talk about it like grown adults and come to a conclusion on what something means and how to go about things. I thought it was very interesting to see that and it was very commendable. The night wore on and we had some interesting discussions. Marijuana views are completely independent from person to person and is different in so many ways for each person. Eventually I obviously had to leave, but not because I wanted to. But because I had to. It was 3:30 am and I had work in 5 hours and I never did end up sleeping so I ended up staying up for 26 hours ( yay...).
Fast forward about 15 hours after sleeping for so long and I ended up on Thursday for bible study. This was going to be a neat bible study, because I actually knew someone who was there (yay!). Garrett had been talking to Courtney, an old neighbor of mine, and she ended up coming which was great! The study was on money to give a general idea. About giving and who to give and how much and so on and so forth, everything and every answer for it in the bible. Now, obviously if I'm a non-christian you would assume that I would gain nothing from this at all because I don't believe in a God to give money to and I don't go to a church right? Wrong. I actually learned a valuable life lesson that I've been ignoring a lot as of late. That life lesson would be Priorities. It taught me that I need to really know what my priorities are and that I need to not spend money on useless crap I don't need, like random fish and tanks that cost 140$ and I never ended up liking them after the first day, and spending it on things that I do REALLY need. Such as college. I also learned that I really need to start saving some of my money. While many christians give 10% of their income to the church, I really should be putting 10% AT LEAST in my savings account. It would be nice to know that if I fall on my ass I have money to cover me.
Now one thing I learned after the study was that when it comes to sexuality I stand quite firm on what I believe. Many people want you to believe that homosexuality is a choice or something you get as you grow up as a mental condition, well I'm here to clear the air that it's not like that at all. It's literally biological and to the core. I'm quite content with going to hell and burning for eternity for my sexuality, because I'd rather die a homosexual than a heterosexual because a belief system tells me so. In the coming weeks I'm apparently going to be meeting a gay-reform-christian thingymabobber. It's likely going to be a heated discussion. I'm fully expecting to cry. I also wouldn't be surprised if voices were raised and we got some stares if we're in public.
The odd thing about this past week for me though has been that I was able to take something for myself out of a study on the bible, which I truly dislike, that I can use for my life. So as much as I really do not like the bible, I'm finding that within its many pages of horror, discrimination, prejudice, and hate; that there is life lessons that can be applied for everyone. Whether you be Christian, Atheist, Agnostic, or Purple. And that's good to know that I can get something like that out of Christianity. Something I never expected to find along this journey. If people were less afraid of things, and they got to know things.... they could learn so much. Homophobes should speak with homosexuals. Racists should speak to people of color. Anti-Semitics should speak with someone who follows Judaism. The world could be such a better place with all the patience and understanding you gain from looking through the other end of the looking glass. Well, that's my rant. And thanks to everyone who reads. I'm hoping to keep doing this for a while. It's quite therapeutic :)